|Bella & Papi in the infusion unit|
Friday, November 25, 2011
Prayer for Terence today.......
Cycle 2/day 25 of chemoby sherry
The only true courage that matters to me right now is the kind that gets us from moment to moment.
Today, my heart is heavy for Terence. He is struggling through this round of chemo with it's side effects and cancer pain too. His body is requiring of him great effort and focus for the simplest of functions that you and I take for granted.
He is tired and in pain. He is grieving because he cannot enjoy his family. He is sad that his energy is focused on himself. His world is focused on moment to moment and he hates it.
Last night as we lay in bed, I saw him holding back tears. I hugged him and told him I was here. His heart opened and his grief flowed like a river. The waters too swift, it crashed on the rocks of anger; waves of guilt and pain collapsed on the bank; and then he found a quiet pool where he could rest.
He's reacting to a major loss.
*Spending his time with his family and friends. Terence values nothing more than this.
* His energy has been a great resource and gift to others around him and he has none to
He feels such a deep sense of loss, sorrow and heartache today.
I prayed for him through the night. And woke him this morning with his favorite scripture:
Isaiah 40:31 -
"But they that hope upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint"
Our hope is in the Lord!