Terence Luttrell-was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer at 46 in July 2009:PSA 431 & Gleason score 9. The diagnosis was advanced stage of the disease; Prognosis:6-18 months to live & came as a complete shock. Terence passed away after fighting for 37 months as the sun rose on Sunday August 19,2012.
Our family is learning how to pass through trying times, allowing it to challenge us in our faith growing in Christ & painstakingly learning how to live above the effects of cancer!
Just opened and read a weekly email I receive from John Hopkins on the
latest Prostate cancer research break through and my mind sorted
through the last 3 1/2 years- of living and breathing PCa- wondering and
hoping for the next great breakthrough for Terence and it all seemed
surreal- like, did all that really happen???? And then- I begin to remember
every little (and big struggle), all the research you guys did, all the
time you guys spent over here, and I remember what it all felt like-
from the beginning to the end and I told myself, "yeah, it did really
happen." Still such painful memories. I'm working on that.
know. I have updates coming into my inbox too- I need to stop them. The
other night I felt bad because that stupid Cancer Centers of America
commercial came on and I yelled at the TV that nobody cared anymore. But
then felt bad, because there are people in that same place we were 5
just watched a NY Times video that was featured. A nurse dying from
pancreatic cancer who had two months to live and invited other nurses
from her alma mater, Holyoke to come in and learn as she was dying. Then
yesterday in GodVine a young guy- in his 20s wrote a song about
goodbyes. He had bone cancer with a month to live. It is unreal, cancer
period. And surreal what you and Terence and the family has experienced
the last 3 years. Cancer is the worst, stupid disease. But Terence
fought hard and you did all you could to the 1,000th percent!
And remember good memories are there too. The other day I was looking
at your wedding vow renewal pictures and thinking how cool was it that
the family got to go through that - regardless that Terence was sick and
dying. And then all the super quality time you guys got to spend
together and with the kids and grandkids before Terence got really sick.
Even just sitting outside on your patio spending time together.
Invaluable. Many couples and families NEVER get to experience what all
of you, us did over the last 3 years. And Terence blessed us with that.
Even through his dying and how he handled it and how strong he was and
you were/are. It is a gift that has been given to me.
Nadine and Andrew's tattoos.
By the way, the photographs in today's blog are a peek-a-boo view into how the kids are dealing with their grief of losing Terence. Interesting observation.