She continued to casually, yet intimately converse with God about me. I can't quite put my thought to paper. It felt like Sherry was talking to a friend. I know God is my friend but I don't think I've conversed with the Lord like how I heard Sherry pray. Amazing. I am blessed and I am challenged. Do I speak freely and intimately with God?".
I love how some of the smallest things in life challenged him. He didn't need big, earth shaking instances to search his heart and to make necessary changes in his life. I admired that in him.
It seems that I may be the opposite. Stubborn and strong willed, only earth shaking experiences seem to catch my attention as reflected in reading through Terence's journal, he would usually add "I hope Sherry understands this" when reflecting on the answers to some of our life's circumstances.
Widowhood is earth shaking. I'm not liking it. It scares me. When looking at my bills, taxes, insurance (life, health, car, etc) coverages, I think "I can't do this". I see winter coming and think "How can I face winter alone"? I am challenged to the max.
But Terence wrote letters to me that I am reading only now; "You can do this Sherry, I believe in you. Let yourself be challenged. You'll grow from it. Don't be afraid. The Lord's grace is here for you. He'll help you. I hope you understand this; His grace is sufficient for you. You can make it."
Times like today (first time grocery shopping for 'one'.... I broke down and cried in the store. So I left), I'm glad he thought of ways to encourage me even after he was gone. He was such an encourager. Thank you for reminding me, Terence.