Monday, September 10, 2012


Sometimes I find myself a little angry at God and questioning and doubting His promises for tomorrow. Sometimes I don't even want to think about what tomorrow, will it be as painful as it was today???

 The pslamist cried out " My God, my God, why are you turned away from me? why are you so far from helping me, and from the words of my crying?"

Obviously the psalmist felt that God had turned away from Him.  I have to admit, sometimes I feel that way...  when things don't turn out as I had hoped.....but deep inside I know He's a good God so even in my darkest hour I know God has not forsaken me.  I don't understand all the things that have occurred, but that doesn't change His goodness and kind thoughts toward me.

For I know the plans I have for you, saith the Lord, plans for good and not for evil, 
to give you a future and a hope." 
Jeremiah 29:11
At the moment I cannot even to begin to fathom what my future will look like without my best friend.  But I cry myself to sleep each night and I commit myself into the Lord's hands and cry out to him so that He will sustain me and be the lifter of my head and trust my tomorrow to him.
That's about all I can do on a day to day basis.


  1. Sherry,

    I know I never met you in person, but I do know we are sister's through Christ, Our Lord.

    My heart breaks and feels so much of your pain and I pray daily, that God eases your pain and heartache with each passing day.

    I wish that I could hug you... tell you that everything will be okay... Let you see my heart and how it truly holds you close, yet breaks for you and your family...
    ... But my heart knows that only time will make those things possible.

    The closest thing to your loss that I can relate to is burying my 16 year old brother, when I was only 23. I know how turned upside down my world was. I couldn't even imagine how upside down it was/is for my parents. The one thing that I do know, is that God is kind, in that he only lets our hearts feel just enough of the reality at any given moment, that He thinks our hearts can handle. If we felt all of it at once, no doubt it would be totally unbearable,

    My new prayer is that God is measuring what your heart can take and that He is easing your pain and heartache to that which your heart can handle.

    I'm not very good with words, so I hope my well intended words appear with the same feelings that my heart holds...

    Be blessed, my sweet friend...

  2. Thank you Maria, that's a beautiful prayer, thank you for sharing it with me.....

  3. You truly have the heart of David!

  4. Sherry, I don't know if you know any other widows to talk to - or if you're even at a place where that sounds like something that might help (I know your loss is so very fresh and raw)... but if you ever feel like talking to someone who's walked (and is still walking) this journey, my mom is a wonderful listener. And she loves to pray for people, too. Her email is Just wanted to pass that along to you. You and your family continue to be in my heart.