Today, I'll admit I need strength. It's one of those days.
|Terence & Bella on their prayer rock last summer|
So, I've unpacked and we're using his energy to overcome pain in his recliner. We'll spend time together here at home.
This is enough to break my heart when I really think about it, so I usually keep my mind pre-occupied, except this is the time of year we usually get cabin fever and plan some kind of brief getaway. It saddens my heart so much to think that we can't do this. So much has changed.
I don't like where the days seem to be heading, but someone wise once wrote that there is a way that "seems", but in the end it leads to death. So I don't want to think about what seems to be unfolding and I will continue to hope against hope.
I suppose I am grieving a loss. Of vacations with the kids, the loss of our vigor and the loss of creative energy Terence has always had. Being a recreation director for almost 20 years, Terence was a 'licensed professional' in the field of recreation (funny, huh?)-------this is the loss I am grieving today. I am just sad.
So....I know this is a depressing post today. But don't cry, I don't want to make any one sad today. God is gracious and will strengthen me, probably even before I finish posting this. I am finding that we need the strength of the Lord and wisdom of the Father just to get through our days - thankfully the Lord is faithful and helps us through because of the many prayers and support of our friends and family.
|A thoughtful picture taken by my friend Rona.|
So, "Living Above Cancer" means to overcome the debilitating thief today. Maybe a quiet candle lit dinner for Just T and I.......on the TV trays.