|Father's Day, 2009 T & S with our grand kids.|
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Finding the great
April 12, 2012
My last blog was skimpy in words, because like my mom always said "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".
I didn't have a fit word. I wouldn't have encouraged any body,
so I had to take some time to meditate and find 'good' in all of this.
Don't get me wrong- there are many good things happening in our midst-
I cannot even begin to list them.
I just needed to understand the greater testimony in our situation.
So here's what I've been thinking today. Psalm 119:125 says, "Give me understanding that I may 'know' (Hebrew; 'Yada'- to become intimate with) your testimonies".
What this scripture is saying is "I want to experience your testimonies". I think we all want to experience the miraculous, but I suppose great need always precedes deliverance.
This great need brings us to our knees. Day by day we pray, watch and anticipate a miracle and before we know it we've pressed in and drawn close to the Lord. I am sure many people have experienced Him in new and deeper ways due to prayer because of cancer.
That is good......no, that is great.....
I suppose that's the best part- is that through this cancer mess,
more people get on their knees.
Terence begins a new cycle of chemotherapy on Monday (April 16th).
The swelling in his legs/pubic area lymphnodes have increased- Dr. M believes the chemo will decrease the tumor sizes and allow lymphatic fluids to flow which will hopefully reduce the swelling and bringing him some relief. Until then, he is off his feet, which creates a new challenge- of remaining healthy even while he is sedentary.
His new "ride" is a wheel chair.
His kidney functions were higher in this week's labs- so that is requiring some medicinal changes. His nephrostomy tube and Foley catheter are being managed well.
He is battling daily pain but we try to stay on top of it with morphine so it doesn't get away from him. This takes an immense amount attention (by me) and incredible focus from Terence- he spends most days attempting to remain quiet-in order to overcome pain.
We are humbled to be recipients of your prayer and God's goodness.