Monday, March 19, 2012

What Keeps me going. By Terence

March 20, 2012
by terence

Every day is a battle.  I find that if its not swollen lymph nodes, then it’s a kidney problem, if it’s not that, then it's bone runs the gamut of a hundred other little things that may happen on any given day.

Tomorrow is Tuesday and it’s time for my weekly oncology appointment in Seattle. I am really starting to get irritated by them and I  hate going.  I know that my oncologist desires to help me but it seems like every time we go they find another portion of my body is causing trouble.

I was recently talking to Sherry about my health (again) and I said that I could feel my body struggling to survive.  Yet, more importantly I told her that my spirit feels strong.  I’ve never doubted and have always known that the Lord is with me through this whole thing. The Lord says, “I will never leave you or forsake you” and I've always believed it.
During times of more intense struggles I'm not afraid, I become silently annoyed. This all seems more of a hassle to me than anything.  But when those days turn into weeks and months discouragement can befall me.  That's when the scripture, "why are you so downcast? Put your hope in God" comes alive to me and I  give the praise to God that’s due His name and then I am uplifted in an unexplainable way. It refreshes me and keeps me going.

(Of course, Sherry tries to help me by buying me new duds every once in awhile...she thinks I need it to refresh my soul. I don't have the heart to tell her that guys don't need new clothes to feel reinvigorated, but she seems to enjoy shopping, so I let her. I guess reinvigorates her)!

I won't tell Sherry

Terence (in my new duds).


  1. I have followed you a bit on Facebook and just saw your blog. Wow, I don’t know what to say Terrence. I am sorry.
    Life is strange. It’s funny how it’s not what we thought it would be or how we thought it would turn out.
    The verse that I turn to daily is Proverbs 3:5-6, Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
    I will keep you and your family in my prayers, daily! Shurie (Anthony) Long

    1. Thanks, Shurie. It's good to hear from you after all these years. I covet your prayers....thank you so much!

  2. Lookin' sharp dude!!!! Kim and I love you!!!!!

  3. About asking God WHY?: (a humorous observation) -- On the brilliant TV show King of the Hill, Nancy Gribble calls everyone Shug (short for sugar, they live in Texas, whattya goin' do?). One time she was upset, and held her fist to the sky in earnest questioning and said "Why Shug, why?". I love that. I say it sometimes. You may borrow it, too, if it fits for you.

  4. On Sept.14, 2010 my husband had surgery and his PSA has came back non detectable which has been a blessing, but on Sept. the 5th 2011 he became ill and was diagnose with AML his first hospital stay was for 34 days. The second night he was there Jesus came to him and told him he would be there making sure he would be ok and not to lose faith. For the next five months one week of each month he would go to the hospital for chemo. In Feb. his doctor told him he wouldn't have to take his last chemo because his bone marrow came back with no signs of AML. He has been back to work for four weeks and his bone marrow test that was done two weeks ago was great. God is good, I thank him everyday and I know prayers are answered. I am praying for you and your family. I've been following your progress on facebook. Keep the faith.

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