May 2006
by terence
She continued to casually, yet intimately converse with God about me. I can't quite put my thought to paper. It felt like Sherry was talking to a friend. I know God is my friend but I don't think I've conversed with the Lord like how I heard Sherry pray. Amazing. I am blessed and I am challenged. Do I speak freely and intimately with God?".
My thoughts-
by sherry
I love how some of the smallest things in life challenged him. He didn't need big, earth shaking instances to search his heart and to make necessary changes in his life. I admired that in him.
It seems that I may be the opposite. Stubborn and strong willed, only earth shaking experiences seem to catch my attention as reflected in reading through Terence's journal, he would usually add "I hope Sherry understands this" when reflecting on the answers to some of our life's circumstances.
Widowhood is earth shaking. I'm not liking it. It scares me. When looking at my bills, taxes, insurance (life, health, car, etc) coverages, I think "I can't do this". I see winter coming and think "How can I face winter alone"? I am challenged to the max.
But Terence wrote letters to me that I am reading only now; "You can do this Sherry, I believe in you. Let yourself be challenged. You'll grow from it. Don't be afraid. The Lord's grace is here for you. He'll help you. I hope you understand this; His grace is sufficient for you. You can make it."
Times like today (first time grocery shopping for 'one'.... I broke down and cried in the store. So I left), I'm glad he thought of ways to encourage me even after he was gone. He was such an encourager. Thank you for reminding me, Terence.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is
made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly
about
my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” –2 Corinthians 12:9
Sherry...you will find many days like today...for me it was the first Halloween...and we didn't really celebrate the holiday, it was just the first holiday without my mom...every holiday that first year was hard. It get's better.
ReplyDeleteWow! Lady, you and Terence have brought me to tears again! What a wonderful love you two shared! How awesome that you have his thoughts written to reflect upon! I think of you often, and pray! I know this has to be so hard for you! Thanks for once again taking me into your private life! You're my sister in Christ, and I love you! Not only did You have a wonderful partner, I must say Terence found himself an angel on earth! I pray you are able to conquer the hard things, take your time......what's food anyway!lol. You've been through a lot! You're stronger than you know, the big man upstairs will give you all you need! <3 & prayers!
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