Monday, August 20, 2012

I have no words today.

August 20, 1012

Yesterday at 7:13 am Terence took his last breath after a long night fighting a pulmonary embolism.

I can't seem to find words to share today. 

Although his fight was valiant and courageous (he literally fought to his last breath)- it was traumatic to my heart and I am left to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and massage the bruises of my soul.

I am vacant. Empty, and very, very sad.

I am looking to the Lord who is the Lifter of my head.

Much love and thanks for your prayers throughout our journey.  We're still learning how to live above all of this. Cancer is messy and destructive- but as a family we are still learning how to live above it's devastation.



  1. Hurting with you, Sherry. All of you. I'm so very sorry <3

  2. I understand what your family is going thru now. Right now, as I type this, I am in tears.
    I want you to know, I am greatful to have both you and Terence in my life. Furthermore, I will cherish the time that you guys lived here in Kemmerer. I am very heartbroken beyond words can say.
    But I have to think of what my dad told me a few years back. "When I go, I don't want you to consider that I died. I went on one huge hunting trip. When it is your time, please, come and join me and your mom." It now has been a little over 7 months since he went on his huge trip. Sherry, I love you all. Hang in there. Time will heal this rocky road.

  3. Terence: You are well loved. There is a village surrounding your family, covering them with love. Your bride misses you, always will. Your children, your grandchildren, and many friends all miss you. You ran a good race, fought the good fight and used your time wisely. Be at rest, my friend. ♥

  4. Sherry, Chad informs me that I met you two at the 20 year class reunion at Cheyenne. I do remember! Chad spoke of Terence often and as I read that he passed away, my heart broke for you as a wife and Chad as a friend. I pray that the Lord always lifts your eyes to Him and that your family is in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you!

    Sherrie Weerheim

  5. And the Lord said unto me in my hour of greatest need " fear not my child, the one you love is not lost, he is just away. He is running In my garden of freedom, feeling the sunshine and tasting the rain. For him there is no pain. I have opened wide for him a place of peace and joy. Cry if you must but not for long, bury your sorrows in the arms of my son, he will carry your burden. For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone, it is all a part of my master plan, a trip on the road to HOME"..... ^j^

  6. I have often said "I have no words."
    But, I've learned that it's okay, because the hearts speaks when we cannot. The heart speaks a language, only understood by another loving heart, which shares the pieces of the same shattered glass; with shards that cut like a knife.
    Lifting you and yours in thoughts and prayers...
    ~Maria Blanchard

  7. My DEAR friend;

    My heart aches for you and the kids. I wish I had the words to make this easier. I love you all so very much and I will do what I can to help you all navigate through the shadows.

    All my Love

  8. Praying and sending strength and hugs to you and the family. How lucky we all are to have met him. I am a better person for it. Thank you for sharing your husband with us all. Please remember you are never alone, no matter the time, we are here for you.

  9. Sherry,
    We are saddened to hear the news of Terence's passing. Cancer is one of the toughest battles to fight no matter what type of cancer it is. Our hearts and prayers are with you and your family and friends in hopes that you will heal but you also will always keep him in your heart and soul.

  10. Karen Jones, Brisbane, AustraliaAugust 20, 2012 at 11:01 PM

    Sherry and Family, I know what you are going through at this very sad time. My husband Trevor passed from PC on 07/05/2012. So I am just over the 3 month mark. I have been following your journey for about the last year so I really feel like I know you guys. Even after Trevor passed away I kept following your story and am very saddened by your loss. I nursed Trev at home as well and it is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do but I would do it all over again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Take care of yourself Sherry xo

  11. You can not come to me but I can come to you. The only true verse that helped me when we lost our child.

    I HIGHLY RECOMMEND the book "room of marvels" A picture of heaven and God.

    Mark Kirkwood

  12. Lutrell Family,

    I am reminded of how Jesus responded upon hearing the news his friend Lazarus had died... Jesus wept. He feels what we feel and is touched by those things we go through in this life, because He loves us so much! He loves Terence, and he loves each member of your family with an everlasting love and will give you peace in the midst of this hurt. Trust Him. Hold onto Him. He will walk through this with you! You are being held up safely in His arms now by the thousands of prayers spoken on your behalf. We're praying for all of you now. May the Lord bless you richly in the days ahead, as you take one day at a time. Just breathe, and allow the Lord to bring healing in His time. We're so sorry for your loss! Love in Christ, Rich and Robin Johnson (Springfield, MO)

  13. Sherry and Family,

    What a beautiful love story shared with so many. I've laughed and cried while reading your accounts of how a family lives with cancer with dignity and honesty, real honesty. Sherry your story is powerful. It has given me a roadmap to follow as my family moves forward after a prostate cancer diagnosis. May the grace of a loving God comfort your family. Yvette B. (Los Angeles, CA)

  14. I'm so very sorry Sherry!! My thoughts and prayers are with you always...Your story is beautiful and very painful. as I sit and cry for you my friend...May God Bless you and comfort you and your family...Thank you for sharing such a powerful story filled with love and thoughts are with you always...

  15. Prayers for your family. May you find some comfort .

  16. Dear Sherry and family,
    May you find comfort and peace and be held in love. my heartfelt thoughts and prayers to you.